I’ve written and rewritten this post so many times I’ve lost count. Sometimes feelings and thoughts are difficult to put into words, and this is definitely one of those times. 
I’ve decided to take a step back from skating.  It’s the most difficult choice I’ve ever had to make, but I have to focus on my health and happiness. I feel like people (including myself) often gloss over their problems to create this image of “perfection”, especially online, but it’s really important for me to be honest and open with you all about this. I’ve been struggling with an eating disorder for years now, and it’s not something I can keep ignoring or trying to manage on my own.

We all know figure skating is a sport where it’s hard to be successful without a certain physical appearance. I’ve struggled with my weight since I was thirteen years old, and it has fluctuated a lot throughout my career. It’s extremely difficult to wake up in the morning, look in a mirror, and hate what you see. Then imagine you have to put on a skintight dress and compete in front of a large crowd, on national television, in a sport that’s largely judged on appearance. It’s hard. Actually it’s terrifying. I’m proud of myself for pushing through for as long as I have. Now I’ve decided I need to put myself first and take the time to get the help I need. Skating has given me so much. I was able to travel all over the world, make so many unforgettable memories, meet the most incredible people, and compete proudly for my country. To experience all of this with my big brother by my side has been the best part. This sport has made me who I am today. I couldn’t be more grateful to everyone who has supported Michael and me through the years. I want to say a huge thank you to our friends, family, coaches, everyone at US Figure Skating, our sponsors who have made this dream possible and everyone else who helped us along the way, I feel so blessed.

I’m not sure what this new chapter of my life will bring, but I’m excited about the future. I’ll continue to cheer Mic