On this, the eve of my 30th birthday, I can’t take my mind off the trip to Canada earlier this year. I feel so grateful to Angela and Dan, the farmers for whom I volunteered, who literally saved my life. This time six months ago, I was on the brink of ending it. I honestly didn’t think I would make it to my 30th birthday. That trip was a huge turning point for me. If anyone is struggling, please don’t be ashamed of yourself or your emotions. Talk to family, friends, and if necessary call the Samaritans on 116 123 (UK).